August 12, 2014

Life moves so fast, and I forget to write it down. I always think I'll remember the awesome things my kids say and do, the special time Thomas and I have, and I realize that is not true. I always re-devote myself to blogging as my way of journaling, and then I do not do it! So I am not re-devoting myself I am simply going to write and if I don't finish a thought I will post and maybe continue later, or maybe not and years down the road I will try to figure out what the heck I was talk about.....I do that when I read old journal from my childhood

So much I want to write, my mom's birthday is today ( I miss her so much), the Phoenix Temple is being dedicated soon, we moved! Charly started 1st grade, Nixon is potty trained(most days), Easton is such a booger! Thomas is getting old.....wait so am I!

Michelle Candelaria, she was born August 12, 1965 in Globe Arizona to Mike and Gayle Candelaria, their first born together......and as a mother now, I cannot imagine the loss it must be to lose your daughter. My mom died 20 years ago, and as I hit the age of 29, the age she died, I thought to myself I am so young! I have so much left to do with my life, SHE had so much to do with her life, and its tragic. She would be 49 today, and that to me seems old, but I know at 49 I will feel the same I did at 29! I have a strong testimony that we will be together again, but as I look at my children it makes me feel so sad, I would hate to miss their lives, their first everything. And then I think what they would feel like and that kills me, they would be confused, scared, lost, and then I think we were all those things. I think of my mom a lot now that I am older with my own family, as a child I tried to forget, forget that I no longer had a mom or dad, forget that my life was different. Now I think of her when I have a baby, when my kids have a birthday party, at every holiday, on her birthday, and on the anniversary of her death. I am happy that she is happy now, and can no longer suffer pain or heartache.

The Phoenix Temple open house/dedication was announced today. I am so excited, excited to get to invite local friends to tour the Temple, excited to live close to a Temple. Since moving to the valley we have lived closer but have not gone to the Temple in a long time, but now there is no reason not to go! Excited to have an amazing friend who is getting ready to go through the Temple for the first time, and later be sealed to her husband and 2 boys, and what a strength that is to me. What an amazing example she is to me, I am so excited for her, and cannot wait to go to the Temple with her. Since the Temple is in our area we had an opportunity to sign up to help at the open house, they needed ushers, tour guides, parking attendants, and people to help with the booties. Thomas and I signed up for a few things mostly because we just want to be there, whatever they need we want to do it!

Charly started school on Wednesday, her teacher is Mrs. Encarnacion.  Charly has been very excited to get to stay at school all day, as I am writing this it's Tuesday and she likes school, but she did not want to get out of bed this morning. That may have been because she was so tired last night but could not sleep so she talked to Thomas for about 20 minutes straight, about why she could not sleep. And I am reminded this is my daughter! She is amazing, smart, talk her way out of a box, and in for a tough few years. We love her though.

Time for bed, we shall talk later!